There is a certain state of mind needed to get through this
A state of mind I cannot achieve
I work day and night to maintain this status
this status of glory
there is a little more needed
kids my age are no longer kids
Instead, we are adults stuck in children's bodies
I must work endlessly hard to make you proud
I am afraid I have lost myself
Lost in the void that is trying to be the best student possible
I must work harder than anyone else
I must lose all sense of direction if it does not better my education
I lost my childhood at a young age
I really did not have much choice
I am to work and work and work until I make you proud
Until my hands ache from writing and my eyes hurt from reading
There is no stopping
Take as many classes as you can so you look successful
How much is too much
How much pressure is too much for a kid my age
How much work will I need to do to make you proud
At a point in time, I must stop
I need to look at myself and understand
Understand that there is no success if I no longer put my best self forward
I will take a step back
Resign from being the hard worker you know
I will stop looking for that certain state of mind
And understand my state of mind
Here's to allowing kids to be kids
Here's to acting my age and being in my own body
Here's to working on my own state of mind
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