Freedom
i wish i was a falling star
so i could go to space,
and i wish i was a blue jay
so i could find a dream to chase
and i wish i was a cloud
so i don't need a place to stay
and i wish i was a butterfly
so i could fly away.
fly and float and fall
and live
that’s all i’ll ever need to see
how beautiful a life could be
to be fulfilled is to be free
Thinking
sometimes i sit and think
and sometimes i just sit and stare
i blink and suddenly
the sun falls down
and all around
i start to drown
in thoughts i thought
id never think
i think about the world revolving
im evolving
who am i gonna be
i guess i'll see
it’s day-by-day
but now i'm thinking
and i'm sinking
in those thoughts i thought
id never say
Dreams
i fell asleep under the moon
and woke up to the sounds of birds
they were humming happy melodies
and singing songs i've never heard
i think i had a dream last night
where i was sitting on a silver throne
and loudly shared opinions
about people i had never known
the dawn turned into dusty doom
the day was like a glitching screen
that twisted lines and skipped the ends
of movies i had never seen
and feelings that i've never felt
and words im never gonna say
and lives im never gonna live
and books i'll never get to read
and stories that i can't perceive
and fantasies i can't believe
and dreams.
i'll never get to dream
my visions of bestowing queens,
and finally becoming me
and being who i'll never be
Words
words are like hurricanes
and avalanches
and tidal waves.
words,
scribbles on a piece of paper
lines and dots and dashes.
words,
i wish i could use them
shape them and
form them
translate my feelings into
words,
but i can't make them work
instead of drifting to the ground they
slam
and letters explode
words,
that can heal better than a pill
and love better than a hug
and hurt worse than a knife
words,
often I feel like I’m drowning in them.
they fill my head like a river
sentences and letters
dripping into every crevice of my brain
flooding all my thoughts
and soon
words will start to overflow
and my words drip around me
pooling up and
puddling and
i don’t know how to swim in them and
suddenly
i’m sinking in
words
Ok
everything will be ok
you say
sitting in the car
staring at the stars
and hoping that they don't fall down
looking at the town
seeing all the lights like
brightness in the night.
i think i'm gonna drown
in a pile of thoughts that
i'm always gonna know but
i'm never gonna say.
feeling like i'm falling
but the falling turns to flying
and that's when i know that it will
be ok
Drowning
thank you to the people that
are always there and
always care and
how can i explain
how much you mean to me and
help me
save me from myself
and thank you more than
words can say
you’re the one that saves me when
i'm drowning